Dearest Diary,

 

Does it hurt when some1 blame wat u didn't do? Forget it yah, sth stupid huanted me all the time..I will take it for granted n start my new life after graduated. . . still dunno which way to go . . . -.- . . . damn it, i wrote when i mabok. . .forgive me la. . .hAhAh. . .long time no drink . . .wat everyone tHink abt being gOod person? wat can he/she get it in return? nth. . .:p 

 

Oi Oi Oi. . .:p

 

gOtta take a rest. . .kik2

Dear Diary

 

       Welcome to 2008  . . .kik kik . .really long time haven't touched diary . . .oi oi oi . . thing always changes . . .Yesterday is my b'day  . . hahaha . . getting older but actually have to say that getting mature . .hohohohho . . really wanna go do some crazy stuff but why exam always bothers me every B'day for more than 4 years . . .I hope this year is my last for those boring exam . .yesterday i was kinda fulllllll . . .breakfast with cake and ended up with another special cake  . .hahahaha . .. that's why today a kind of no appetize on my breakfast but @ noon eat twice more than usual . . maybe i will be a piggy soon . . whatever . . .:P    time is ticking so fast .. this is the last year of my campus student life  . . .oi oi oi . . suddenly i am lazy to write . . aiz . .bye2 diary  . .

 

    DeAr DiaRy

 

         This is the day I hv to go back Thailand..for my granny funeral ceremony. Yeah, dont deny it's terribly sad that u know? yesterday she was stable but she was in ICU but today she's gone forever. Who the heck can judge who will live and who will go? When that unexpected time is coming nth I can do jz try to handle and figure it out by preparing my mind and dont even get myself more depress.. If I can accept this can my granny be alive again? oi oi , it's so ridiculous..how cAN one change other lives? Yesterday at temple, i tried my best to make meditaton and pray but lots of distraction came to my mind and plus, those old- lady- pegion kept talking beside me.. I was embarrased but I tried to finish some chapters in da bible..every words I prayed jz for granny and really want her to rest in peace..Maybe it's the wayout ..she got no more pain, she is fine forever in invisible land ..  Really got no mood to study but it's me..da gal who never listen to teacher in clss.. I compete with those teachers..who is gonna be the winner of chatting competition? for the knowledge part, normally, teacher is the winner..for the shitty stuffs, of course, me...lol...

 

         I feel much more better ..thxs everybody for being nice and gave me lots of consolation...I wonder how can't I think about simple thing like that? do i need to be nun after graduation??? oi oi oi ...some uncontemplated thought always happens under my mess subconscious.. gotta go liao diary...bye2

In the other province of Thailand

 

 

       hahaha...I can breathe fresh air...here is like I can feel and touch the other asmosphere...out of Bangkok is so nice...hahaha  If u wanna know how does it feel jz come and see by yourself...got nth to do but actually, alot of stuffs waiting 4 me but I'm really lazy to move my ass ...hahahaha...a lot of invoices waiting for me to print out but lazy ...oi oi oi...I dun wanna be ManOoD Ngen Duen . . . miss all friends but they all have no time till  the end of Feb so what should I do during this time... but all I know ..receive Red Pocket 1st...haha this time I got not too little and not too much... but i think i will finish all bucks afterthat...huahahaha...when i got nth to do i jz realize that i can hear sth from my heart ..sth that i have never heart before but now i can...hehehe...

       Yesterday is Valentine Day, but I passed that day by working OT with my staffs ...actually I should type uncle's workers...it's ok for me..everyday is like common day for me...nth special ...don't give a shit such a gal like me...hohoho...hanging out with gals all days all nites nth special ..life jz like this but actually my gut feeling kept waiting for someone who is able to get along with me but seems really hard ...extremely hard or terribly hard as long as my mood is like this...never gonna change my emotion ,bad manner ,oi oi oi what I've typed ...forget it...that's all...maybe so sleepy ...hehehe

and then today is coming..nth much in my life ..jz go for study...reach my goal..that's all.....hehe..try to imitate my friend's word..waiting for miracle..but im not much in harmony in society or a kind og introvert sometimes..who can predict their emotion..